So I was looking back...

So I was reading some old posts and I came across this one...



Saturday, March 10, 2007

Gods Constant Reminder
Sometimes I get so set in my routine.

Last night when talking to my worship leader about who needed to worship for our Celebrating Recovery class I was the lucky one chosen.

This sounds selfish.... so remember I am human and I constantly fail.First of all...I didn't want to give up part of my Friday night.

I wanted to just hang out and relax.

So I go down to the church and I am setting everything up. I felt as if everything was going wrong. I could tell that God was wanting me to break my routine.

So I grab a stool and I go and sit on the same level as the small group to worship. (Like instead of standing on the stage)

As I feel like I am about to ruin everything God presses on my heart to tell them its okay to sing to him within a small group. Don't be concerened about the people next to you.

So we proceed to do a couple of worship songs and I am just messing up left and right with my fingers.

For some reason my fingers and my guitar are in a dispute.

I am just thinking to myself why am I so disoriented tonight?

Then it hits me.

God is still waiting for me to meet him.

I lower my voice and listen to the other eight people singing. It was beautiful. They were in his presence and I was not.

I stop playing the guitar.

I lift my hands and I sing out to God.

Then I relize its not that my fingers arent meeting my guitar.

Im not meeting God.

I never cease to be in awe at what God has to tell me.



I still tend to make the same mistake sometimes. Sometimes I get so caught up in myself I forget what I am doing.

So I am definately thankful for all the constant reminders God blesses me with.

Thats all.

The Contemplative State

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—

whom shall I fear?

The LORD is the stronghold of my life—

of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When evil men advance against me

to devour my flesh,

when my enemies and my foes attack me,

they will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,

my heart will not fear;

though war break out against me,

even then will I be confident.
4 One thing I ask of the LORD,

this is what I seek:

that I may dwell in the house of the LORD

all the days of my life,

to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD

and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble

he will keep me safe in his dwelling;

he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle

and set me high upon a rock.
6 Then my head will be exalted

above the enemies who surround me;

at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;

I will sing and make music to the LORD.
7 Hear my voice when I call, O LORD;

be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"

Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,

do not turn your servant away in anger;

you have been my helper.

Do not reject me or forsake me,

O God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,

the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, O LORD;

lead me in a straight path

because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,

for false witnesses rise up against me,

breathing out violence.
13 I am still confident of this:

I will see the goodness of the LORD

in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;

be strong and take heart

and wait for the LORD.

Psalms 27

Last night as I was spending some quiet time with God I came upon this Psalm. As I was reading it my heart became calm.

My life has been full of chaos it seems. Too many choices and not enough communication.

But through everything

God is always with me.

Unfailing Love

You have my heart

And I am yours forever

You are my strength

God of grace and power

And everything

You hold in Your hand

Still You make time for me

I can't understand

Praise You, God of earth and sky

How beautiful is Your unfailing love

Unfailing love

And You never change,

God, You remain

The Holy One and my unfailing love

Unfailing love

You are my rock

The One I hold on to

You are my song

And I sing for You

These Lyrics are Beautiful.

These words make my heart happy.

Everything I do I give my heart and soul.

Everything I do I give my heart and soul.



Plain and simple.



God is cool.

Do you Trust?

Have you ever really thought of that?

It is so hard to trust God because you loose control.

But...

Whatever we put in God's hands we can be assured it is safe

(~Nneka said this~)

Trust in God.

Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.

Psalm 9:10

If you fully trust in God and you seek him out will he not grant you the desires of your heart? If your desires are for God's Glory and His Power will he not provide it?

God is so amazing.

This week has been Good.

Through fasting I am learning that I am content.

I am content in where I am at with God.

God has shown me that he is pleased with me and loves me for me.

I am set apart.

For His works.

For His people.

I have been chosen by God.

What calling is better than that?

I trust.

Strengthen Yourself to Lead

Hebrews 12:12-13

Therefore strengthen the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be dislocated, but rather be healed.

I was looking through my bible last night and I found this highlighted and next to it I wrote Strengthen Yourself to Lead. When I saw this my heart just started racing. I realized I am straighting my paths before God and I am preparing myself to Lead. These past couple of days have been amazing. God has given my taste of things that I can't even explain.

Yesterday my church began a 7 day fast. I have committed to that because I feel it is important to support my pastors and leaders. Not only will I grow with God but I will be growing with my church family.
Another reason is I fully trust and believe my Pastors and Leaders. Every time I have ever doubted them I have asked and when they explain to me and I understand.

God has really poured out his blessing on these people. There is no one better I would want to follow when it comes to God's plan.

Unity has always been a big thing on my heart.
This week that is going to be a Key Factor!

We must be one in the spirit. We must be one in the Lord.

Just thinking...

"In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?"- Psalm 56:4

My first thought when I saw this verse was ick yeah right. We are horrible (as in all living beings). Then I thought of sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me... and once again i said to myself ick yeah right... words are always hurtful.
But Gods words are so calming. So relaxing. One word whispered in our ears by God is worth more than a million compliments coming from friends and family...

But why does this verse say what can mortal man do to me?

The truth is God allows things to happen...

Why?

Becuase its part of this huge scheme that we will never understand or even begin to comprehend!

But if we just have faith in God and truly trust him and serve him through are trials.... how amazing will that day be when God turns to you and says... Well done good and Faithful servent...


Why fear? Does God not say in Mathew "who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life.".... Fear I believe is from the devil.... without fear we would totally trust God... and that is exactly what the devil does not want us to do....

So when it comes down to it... by removing fear we remove satan. By trusting God we allow change.

Not just any change...

A Good Change.

"In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?"