Broken Record

"What do you want to do?"

Do you know how many times I have heard that question this past year?

Sheesh...

Who knows...

1. I had hoped to be a worship leader overseas.
2. I thought I would have been almost done with school.
3. Married... or at least with Mr. Right in sight. (Yeah right, I know.)
4. Serving under people who craved to know God's words because it is unavailable to them.
5. Sitting with someone in the middle of no where just listening to their fears and telling them of hope that Jesus Christ has to offer.
6. Sending letters home to Mom and Dad telling them how much I miss them and how thankful I am for all of their support and encouragement.
7. I figured I would be a better person than who I use to be... in reality I don't think I am.

Just some of the things I had hoped to accomplish by now.

Life goes by too fast and I don't want to waste it.

but this has been a year of blessings as well...

1. I have a great job with adorable children that drive me crazy but when I go home on the weekends I find myself missing them....
2. Friends. New and Old. Always there for me when I need them. (Thanks guys)
3. My family. I have grown so close to them this past year and I can't live without them.
4. The Way is still going strong through God's provision.
5. My new worship team family... (Karen, Boozer, Dawn, Sarai, and Katie)
6. The encouragement and confidence I get from my Oaks family to keep going.
7. Most importantly... God's reassurance that he is and has been watching out for me and will never leave me.

Therefore by Him let us continually offer the sacrifice to God, that is, the fruit of our lips, giving thanks to his name.
~Hebrews 13:15

Thats all.

I am a friend of God...

So I don't really like the song Friend of God.... but as I listen to the worship team practice it right now in my living room... They sound nice... Good jobs guys!

Its nice to have everyone back together....

These things I will never...

Take for granted.

Standing in the rain...
Strumming a chord on my guitar...
Being able to tell some one how much I love them...
Waking up every morning and praising God for all he has given to me...
Being able to put one foot in front of the other without a second thought on how...
Reading, writing, and even talking...
Singing praises to the Lord...
Being with family...
The laughter from friends...
The hugs I get from my nephews and nieces...

These are some of the things I will never take for granted.
God has blessed me greatly...

Thank you Lord.

Just a simple prayer...

God...

You are so Good.

So encouraging.
So loving.
So full of grace.
So powerful.

You lift us up in time of need and you hear us as we come to you with burdened hearts and overwhelming circumstances that we can not over come on our own.

You are beautiful.
Wonderful.

You are exalted.

Nothing can hold us down even when we see no end to our problems.
When it seems like the floods are closing in you hold us in your arms and carry us to higher ground.

God pour your Spirit into our lives that we may daily overflow into others.

You say your burden is light and your yoke is a feather.

Your name holds power.

Jesus.
Jesus.
Jesus.

Lead us.
Mold us into your masterpiece.

Be exalted.

Let our worship be our offering.
Let our praise be unto you a heavenly sound.

Let this prayer be the prayer of many.
Thousands.

We are loved.

It is because of your love that we are able to love others.
Let your love be our weapon against the ones who try to knock us down.

God you are Master.
You are Savior.

And you...

You alone are God.

Our creator.
Our father.
Our strength.

And our refuge.

Amen.

So I was looking back...

So I was reading some old posts and I came across this one...



Saturday, March 10, 2007

Gods Constant Reminder
Sometimes I get so set in my routine.

Last night when talking to my worship leader about who needed to worship for our Celebrating Recovery class I was the lucky one chosen.

This sounds selfish.... so remember I am human and I constantly fail.First of all...I didn't want to give up part of my Friday night.

I wanted to just hang out and relax.

So I go down to the church and I am setting everything up. I felt as if everything was going wrong. I could tell that God was wanting me to break my routine.

So I grab a stool and I go and sit on the same level as the small group to worship. (Like instead of standing on the stage)

As I feel like I am about to ruin everything God presses on my heart to tell them its okay to sing to him within a small group. Don't be concerened about the people next to you.

So we proceed to do a couple of worship songs and I am just messing up left and right with my fingers.

For some reason my fingers and my guitar are in a dispute.

I am just thinking to myself why am I so disoriented tonight?

Then it hits me.

God is still waiting for me to meet him.

I lower my voice and listen to the other eight people singing. It was beautiful. They were in his presence and I was not.

I stop playing the guitar.

I lift my hands and I sing out to God.

Then I relize its not that my fingers arent meeting my guitar.

Im not meeting God.

I never cease to be in awe at what God has to tell me.



I still tend to make the same mistake sometimes. Sometimes I get so caught up in myself I forget what I am doing.

So I am definately thankful for all the constant reminders God blesses me with.

Thats all.

The Contemplative State

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—

whom shall I fear?

The LORD is the stronghold of my life—

of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When evil men advance against me

to devour my flesh,

when my enemies and my foes attack me,

they will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,

my heart will not fear;

though war break out against me,

even then will I be confident.
4 One thing I ask of the LORD,

this is what I seek:

that I may dwell in the house of the LORD

all the days of my life,

to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD

and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble

he will keep me safe in his dwelling;

he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle

and set me high upon a rock.
6 Then my head will be exalted

above the enemies who surround me;

at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;

I will sing and make music to the LORD.
7 Hear my voice when I call, O LORD;

be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"

Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,

do not turn your servant away in anger;

you have been my helper.

Do not reject me or forsake me,

O God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,

the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, O LORD;

lead me in a straight path

because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,

for false witnesses rise up against me,

breathing out violence.
13 I am still confident of this:

I will see the goodness of the LORD

in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;

be strong and take heart

and wait for the LORD.

Psalms 27

Last night as I was spending some quiet time with God I came upon this Psalm. As I was reading it my heart became calm.

My life has been full of chaos it seems. Too many choices and not enough communication.

But through everything

God is always with me.

Unfailing Love

You have my heart

And I am yours forever

You are my strength

God of grace and power

And everything

You hold in Your hand

Still You make time for me

I can't understand

Praise You, God of earth and sky

How beautiful is Your unfailing love

Unfailing love

And You never change,

God, You remain

The Holy One and my unfailing love

Unfailing love

You are my rock

The One I hold on to

You are my song

And I sing for You

These Lyrics are Beautiful.

These words make my heart happy.